Being too nice can be a curse??

am i nice?
of coz i wont be able to judge myself that im a nice person..it never be my right to do so..

but there's some people who say im too nice..too kind hearted..too care..too afraid to let people down..
is it so?

but why sometimes i feel like im too selfish..
im afraid of hurting other people..
im terrified that people hate me for a reason that i cannot understand..

is it true, when u being too nice, people will easily step on u?
is it true, u should never volunteer on something, since u will be bound to do the same act of kindness every other time?
is it true, being too kind will increased the risk of u being hurt?

i want to be kind..but how can i do it without making people think that i am their easy target to be used?
i want to trust..but how can i do it without open up a possibilities of being broken heart because of betrayal?

i do care for people..
i want them to like me..
i want them to know that they mean something to me..
and i want them to know how im afraid that when i care about that people, but my actions seem to show differently from what i intend..

sometimes i wish i juz know the right thing to do..
the right way to act..
the right people to love and care..
the right time to tell and confess..
and the right path to choose..

but we are human being..that's why it's never gonna happen rite?

*if anyone accidentally reading this,please apologize for my broken grammar..